Thursday, April 14, 2005

Chance or bad luck

Once a shoe company wanted to open a new market in some parts of Africa. For that reason, the director sent one of his salesmen to an area called zeke-zeke to introduce some models of the company shoes and sell them. Unfortunately, no zeke-zeke's inhabitant was wearing shoes. They even didn't know what it's called a pair of shoes. The salesman came back to the head office and made a report to his boss.
Dear Sir,

I'd like to apologize for dissapointing you. After doing some research, I found that our product will come into a failure if we still continue to with the old campaign of entering zeke-zeke. Therefore I suggest to consider other places where the people like wearing shoe. However thank you for trusting me.

sincerely,

...


The director was still uncertain with the result of the first salesman. For the second time, he sent another salesman to Zeke-zeke to promote the shoes. When the second salesman arrived and saw there was no one wearing shoes. He got so excited and quickly send a telegram to his boss.
Dear Sir,

Our product seems able to gain a big niche in this area. It is a perfect time to enter Zeke-zeke, because no competitor was exist yet and we can be the first and the trend setter for the people in wearing shoes. This market will bring a bright future for our company since they will wear only our shoes. We should keep going with the plan and hopefully in short time we can get the result.

Yours faithfully,
...

It's a good news for the director and he was very satisfied with the second salesman and then he fired the first one...(what a poor guy) ^^;

Maybe some of you have heard this story; I just re-write it anyway. I even forgot who told me the story more less want to tell how different people are looking to the same problem. In other words I'd like to say it's about thinking positively and be optimist in facing certain situations.

Sometimes, a simple problem can be seen as something really matter and bigger than it actually is because of the bad thoughts often come first before the others. Just like me when my assignments almost meet the due time. I always wish to have more time so that I could make it better (the fact I hardly get wish come true). But the time extension just makes me even lazier than before as I think I have more time, more time to rest and make the report peacefully. The effect most of the time was even worse than if I keep on my exact schedule. The break time makes me forget about the crucial thing that I should get it done and when I suddenly remember it no much time left...and it does squeeze my brain from the day until the next morning just to have myself write 15 pages report.........c'mon give me a break!!!! (the fact I've got a lot already).

It will be different when I have a week left and I think the course is gonna finish soon..very soon. With less pressure I make myself do the work and enjoy it day by day until the deadline day. It is not the dead day anymore..it's my independence day horrayy!!!...I couldn't wait till that days come. But for now I'm just keep myself busy with lots of papers, classes and assignments and still having fun though. I'm trying my best to enjoy my busy days and keep in God's plan and control. I hope the same things to you too pals!!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

"I can't but He will fulfill"

Ajarku mengerti segala rencanaMu
Ajarku berserah hanya padaMu
Pimpinlah jalanku dalam terang FirmanMu
Ajarku berharap hanya padaMu

Bapaku ajaib sgala rancanganMu
Tuhanku heran perbuatanMu
Engkau sanggup mengadakan
Segala yang kuperlukan
Menurut kehendakMu terjadilah


Tidak sengaja kemaren saya menemukan satu webpage yang berisi lirik lagu-lagu rohani. Sudah sekian lama saya tidak pernah menyanyikan lagu-lagu tersebut karena lingkungan yang kurang mendukung dan kesibukan sehari-hari. Kalau kepingin nyanyi juga rasanya sulit untuk mengingat lagu apa yang ingin saya nyanyikan.Garink....garink...huhu makanya setelah menemukan page satu ini saya jadi nyanyi-nyanyi semalaman ciee(moga-moga ga ada yang protes hehe)...rasanya aneh..seharusnya saya sudah lupa bagaimana menyanyikannya. Tetapi nyatanya begitu saya tahu liriknya, Dia seperti menaruh pujian itu dalam mulut saya dan membuat saya mengingat melodinya.

Nah salah satu pujian yang berkesan adalah lagu di atas yang berjudul Ajarku Berharap Hanya PadaMu. Lagu lama nih, liriknyapun pendek tapi maknanya cukup membuat saya berpikir lagi akan apa yang saya hadapi saat ini.

Singkat kata sebenarnya saya sekarang sedang dalam masa-masa yang membingungkan. Dalam dua bulan mendatang saya harus bisa menyelesaikan sebuah skripsi, sebelum itu saya juga harus menemukan perusahaan yang dapat membantu saya melakukan riset tentang topik yang saya pilih buat menulis skripsi, setelah itu saya akan kembali ke Belanda..mencari tempat tinggal baru dan perusahaan lagi (kali ini buat magang) dan masih banyak persoalan pribadi lainnya. Banyak kali saya mengeluh karena keadaan yang saya hadapi sekarang, bertanya pada diri sendiri dan orang lain apakah saya sanggup menyelesaikan semuanya itu, bahkan sempat terlintas perasaan seandainya saya di Belanda maka akan lebih mudah mencari kerja magang atau pergi ke gereja lagi..(satu hal yang membuatku cukup sedih di sini hampir tidak pernah ke gereja).

Saya menjadi kehilangan arah dan hampir putus asa. Saya tidak meninggalkan Tuhan, saya tetap berdoa kepadaNya tetapi dengan cara yang tidak seharusnya karena saya hanya bercurhat ria dan memintaNya membukakan jalan buat saya.Sampai pada pagi ini, teman serumah saya,Lya, mengingatkan saya bahwa kita tidak boleh berharap pada manusia melainkan hanya kepada Tuhan saja. Satu hal telah saya lupakan bahwa saya tidak berserah dan memahami kehendakNya dalam rencana yang saya buat. Saya hanya berencana, berpikir, mencari-cari bagaimana menyelesaikannya dengan pikiran saya sendiri. Satu pasal kembali teringat di kepala saya..Tuhan sendiri tidak menyukai orang yang bergantung kepada dirinya sendiri dan manusia. Dalam Yeremia 17:5-8 Dia sendiri melalui nabi Yeremia mengatakan

"Beginilah firman TUHAN: "Terkutuklah orang yang mengandalkan manusia, yang mengandalkan kekuatannya sendiri, dan yang hatinya menjauh dari pada TUHAN!"

"Ia akan seperti semak bulus di padang belantara, ia tidak akan mengalami datangnya keadaan baik; ia akan tinggal di tanah angus di padang gurun, di negeri padang asin yang tidak berpenduduk."

"Diberkatilah orang yang mengandalkan TUHAN, yang menaruh harapannya pada TUHAN!"

"Ia akan seperti pohon yang ditanam di tepi air, yang merambatkan akar-akarnya ke tepi batang air, dan yang tidak mengalami datangnya panas terik, yang daunnya tetap hijau, yang tidak kuatir dalam tahun kering, dan yang tidak berhenti menghasilkan buah."


Apa si yang ga mungkin buat Tuhan. Fool you, Lea! Saya hanya mengeluh dan meminta pemecahan tanpa mengingat bukan itu yang Dia mau, bukan itu yang menurut Tuhan saya harus perbuat. Apa yang saya inginkan menurut Dia bukan itu yang saya perlukan saat ini. Sungguh Dia tidak meninggalkan saya, melalui teman-teman saya melalui firmanNya saya ditegurnya seperti seorang Bapa mendidik anaknya. Maka ampuni saya ya Bapa karena mengandalkan kekuatan saya dan berpikir dengan cara saya sendiri sehingga pelan-pelan saya mulai menjauh lagi dariMu. Kalau saya boleh berencana biarlah semuanya boleh terjadi hanya karena kehendakMu saja. Amin. Kapok deh...(-__-#)

Sunday, April 03, 2005

The Symbolic Meaning for Flowers

The rose and several other flowers say I love you to your special Someone. Below are symbolic meanings for several varieties of flowers (even some of them I never see how they're look like but you can check them anyway by google) ^^;

Amaryllis - Pride
Apple Blossom - Hope, good fortune, better things to come
Bellflower - Gratitude
Blue Periwinkle - Friendship
Blue Violet - Modesty, faithfulness
Bluebells - Constancy
Cala Lily - Splendid Beauty
Camellia - Loveliness, gratitude
Carnation - Distinction, fascination
Chrysanthemum (red) - I love you
Chrysanthemum (white) - Truth
Cyclamen - Modesty and shyness
Daffodil - Regard
Daisy - Beauty & Innocence
Fern - Fascination and sincerity
Flowering Almond - Hope
Forget-Me-Not - True love and remembrance
Gardenia - Secret Untold Love
Honeysuckle - Devoted affection, generosity
Hyacinth - Loveliness
Hydrangea - Boastfulness
Iris - Warmth of affection
Ivy - Eternal fidelity
Jasmine - Amiability
Larkspur - Laughter
Lemon Blossom - Fidelity in love
Lilac - First Love
Lilac (white) - Youthful innocence
Lily - Majesty
Lily-of-the-Valley - Return of happiness
Magnolia - Perseverance
Marigold - Affection
Mimosa - Secret love
Myrtle - Love and remembrance
Orange Blossoms - Purity or fertility
Orchid - Rare beauty
Peach Blossom - Captive
Peony - Bashfulness
Red Chrysanthemum - Love

About the roses...
Red Rose - Passion
All roses say, I Love You, but each color has it's own meaning:
Burgundy - Unconscious Beauty
Orange or Coral - Desire
Pink - Grace and gentility
Red & White Together - Unity
Red - Passion
Sweetheart Roses - Darling, Dear or Honey
White - Worthiness
White Rosebuds - You're too young for love
Yellow - Joy

Rosemary - Remembrance
Sweet Pea - Delicate pleasures
Tulip - Love
Violet - Modesty, affection, faithfulness
Yellow Tulip - Hopeless love
quoted from:http://www.craftassoc.com/flowers.html

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Stitch and the eight little ducks


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I do love ducks..and cartoon =)



haha...lagi di kampus nih gara-gara internet di rumah mendadak mati. Pegi ke kampus juga buat meeting ama dosen buat diskusiin skripsi yang mau aku buat dalam 7 minggu mendatang. Busyeet ga ada 2 bulan lagi...dalam waktu sependek itu aku harus temuin perusahaan dan buat minimal 60 halaman laporan. I'm really doubting myself since I have to do it alone and I'm such a pathetic person..who has no idea what to do besides a high spirit and a little hope to be success. Beginilah kerjaan orang nganggur yang suka ngenet doang...aku bingung..(>.<). udah ah..ngapain dipikirin lama-lama yang penting harus usaha dulu..kuatkan nyalimu ya nak...watashi wa gambaru!! Yoss!!

Monday, March 28, 2005

What does a family mean to you?

I just watched a jdorama together with my housemate called "my little chef". It is actually a drama about a talented female chef who was the daughter of a famous chef. But then I realize this dorama presents not only the good looking French cuisines and delicious dishes..but it is also involved so many family aspects and conflicts (both the family of the main actors and the guest actors).This dorama is funny yet so touching (couldn't hold my tears)...(>_<)~ However I have a good time watching it...

In short, here is the storyline...
Seri, an unknown yet talented female chef from the country, arrives in Tokyo to work at French restaurant, Etoire, but discovers that they have gone out of business due to the departure of their main chef. Together with the restaurant's former manager, she opens a French restaurant of her own and begins to recreate the flavors her late father mastered as a famous gourmet chef. Unfortunately, Etoire returns with an unscrupulous manager, and to make matters worse, Seri learns that it happens to be owned by her birth mother living in Paris who she hasn't seen since she was a child. Seri wonders if her passion and skill will be enough to succeed.--quoted from Jdorama.com

What a family means to someone? Two short message were delivered in this dorama; 1st you'll never cut your family tie until you die...especially for those who have blood relationship with you in a nuclear family. Second one, it hurts you more when you're cheated by someone you like than someone you dislike (of course it is^^). A person can hate his/her family members with many reasons. One could have betrayed him/her or other have left him/her behind..so that he/she thinks that those who he/she used to call mom, dad, bro, or sis don't love him/her anymore.--(huhuhu sorry I repeated so many he or she forms)
As a family we should always stick together and help each other, right??? yeah..you wish..but how many families do have this principle and keep doing it? I think many have it but only few can keep it.

Let's just take a fast look through the 10 episodes of this jdorama

Seri was just 5 when his father married another woman after her mother left for Paris. Then a few years later her half sister was born and they grew up together. Seri loves her new family and even more after her father died.It has been 20 years since Seri's mama left, but she still remembers her and wish to meet her again someday. That's why when she treasures her dearly feeling, she cannot admit the woman that her father married as "okasan--mother" even she does respect her. Until one day Seri and Nazuna (Seri's imotou--little sister) are going to Tokyo as the request of uncle Kenzo to meet his otouto--little brother and rescue his restaurant. Seri just realized how big her step mother's affection towards her, she's the only mother who always takes care of her since she was just five and now she's going to live far away from her. Sadly before she goes to Tokyo she hugs her step mother tightly and said "arigatou ne, Okasan" and they're brust into tears..Family is not always people who are blood related with us, people who are always there for you and care a lot about you are your family when you live apart with your parents and siblings.

Kensaku is Kenzo's brother who was left by his only family; his aniki--big brother with a big restaurant that they built together but in big debt. He never knows where his aniki went, all he knows that the restaurant now has been taken over by Seri's mama's corporation and his aniki ran away from the responsibility as the owner and his brother. It hurts Kensaku very much and makes him want to cut the family tie with Kenzo. Until one day he meets Seri and Nazuna who were sent to him by his mean aniki. Kensaku realizes that Seri has a big talent in cooking that she inherits from her late father who was a master in cooking and it motivates Kensaku to open a new little french restaurant together with her. As the time goes by, finally Kenzaku reunites again with his aniki who has become senseless. He couldn't forgive his aniki and hate him so much although he now knows the reason why Kenzo left to Seri's town. Unless Kenzo didn't show his deep regret and try to reach his brother by cooking him something (even he himself couldn't taste it), Kensaku wouldn't be touched and remember that Kenzo is his only aniki who has been taking a role as his parents since their parents died. Be a family is not only one way relationship, it takes two to tango so does a family, it needs more than one person to admit that we are family.

I think..I stop it first for now..it's 4.24 am and I've got to take some sleep (-.-) oyasumi..

Sunday, March 27, 2005

praten over het taal

mijn dag is voorbij...huhuhu wat jammer ik wil meer een beetje meer a.u.b. maar het is alleen toch een dag, laat maar dan. Hoe gaat het met mijn nederlands? eerlijk gezecht, ik heb helemaal geen idee..echt hoor. Ik weet dat ik ben so slecht om een taal te leren daarom ik heb mijn "svenska" opgehouden na minder dan zes maanden. Nederland is mijn hummm...misschien mijn vierde na javenese, indonesian en engels. Bovendien, soms heb ik ander taal geprobeerd om te leren zoals Frans maar het heeft ook niet wel gegaan. Tot nu, weet ik niet hoe kan ik Frans spreken. Ten minste ik kan nog nederland spreken aan nederlanders op het station of "fast food restaurant" hoewel hebben mijn zinnen vreselijke grammatica. huhuuhuhu...ik heb Nederland gemist en ik wil terug snel als mijn studie hier geeindigdt heeft.

Het spijt me echt, als je hebt deze post gezien en begrijpt je er niks. deze is eindelijk alleen mijn kleine nederland oefening. owari..^^;

Saturday, March 26, 2005

A year....

Hey...I'm 21 now and it's been a year since I blogged my very first post. My friend Lya
who is now my crazy and unique housemate, she was the one who introduced me this blog world. Thanks God and thanks to my family and friends everywhere to give me such a wonderful b-day moment this year here in Sweden. By the way..tomorrow is Easter..Happy Easter everyone..^^ and have a nice day.

best wishes and regards...
Lea

Friday, March 25, 2005

To be mature or to be older

Every people were born to be older every year but not many were born to be adults. Interesting isn't it? To be kids is the modest phase of someone's lifetime. The time when they have only little problems, the safest time children have mom and dad who always care everyday every time, bought them food and toys, it's also time to learn a lot of new and fun things at school, even the time when people can be just really good friends between boys and girls or older people with them without any suspicious mind.

When I am getting older, I get more responsibilities. Just like when my little brother was born two years later after me and then my sister. My parents would likely ask me to be a good example for them. I think that's why I always had a dream to be the youngest one in my family silly me. Humm..anyway it's just an example of myself. There's time when I want to be so childish and be loved by everyone. Not anymore I hope so..

So am I so are most people. When they were caught in a modern new life as adults not few of them wish to be a child again. Some can hold themselves back and face their problematic life as a grown human being while the others just let themselves be trapped in their fantasy world and refused to come back to the real world. This is what I call the different between being adults in this case to be mature and being older.

Back when I was in high school, I always wished to disappear every time my uncle got angry or I made a terrible mistake to someone and he was going to scold me badly. I thought I was weird, but the same thing happen to my best friend, she wished to have ctrl+alt+del on her body so that every time she got very distressed, she can restart herself all over again. But now..thanks God we've changed heehhehe… we want to be mature as we become older.

It is not someone's fate since he or she was born. To be a mature person is a choice. But there's also a view that children are more honest and fairer because they are less knowledgeable than adults who know much more about this universe. Adults are smarter but as they know more they want more and then compete towards each other with tricky sometimes with illegal ways such as threatening one another to get what they want. Therefore, some people prefer being indifferent or pretending not knowing their surrounds to caring and putting themselves into problems in order to create a better life and peace Just by saying it's not one of my business; I don't give a damn; please count me out!!;take him or her there're many who are much better than me (not to say that over caring is also annoying hehe:p ). It's just not the right way to implement the philosophy. If I were those, I'd like to view it as God said in the bible that He sent us as sheep in the middle of wolves therefore we should be smart as snakes but harmless as doves (Matthew 10:16). Life is like solving puzzles ; it will always create problems. By avoiding your problems and never trying to face them or taking risk we'll never learn to be a mature person.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Indonesian dramas are trapped in Fairy tales world

I just checked some Indonesian television websites. Quite surprise me that a lot of dramas have been produced and launched and most of them are dominated with similar plots. It does not mean through this post I will say something bad about my own home country production but it's just my silly opinions after all (lol).

I did love old Indonesian dramas on tv. I was dying to watch them every week and couldn't wait to watch what would happen in the next episode. But then I grow up and move to another part of this world and learn what "reality" is. Sorry to say, but Indonesian dramas' lovers were totally bullied by those dramas on Indonesian television. They are treated as children who believe in fairy tale.

Salutation to the producers you are great to attract those audiences by playing with their emotions. Children mostly dislike politics, drugs, world issues since they are not suited enough for their ages. But in contrast, children do like something fun, something that can make their heart beat fast; fear is a fascinating feeling; there are good people who are always been scolded by the evil ones, then a hero will come to save the good one and wish for a happy ending. This is what is happening in my country now; they keep producing dramas with the tendency to have similar "childish" plots. People think those dramas are for adults but world see them as fairy tales.

The fact here is that the happy ending won't come for at least two years production and through never-ending sessions and story. Should I say it's a great job? Is it the proper marketing strategy? But it seems work very well amongst certain Indonesian audiences such as housewives and teens. I know many people curse on a television drama called "Tersanjung" that have been produced for about 5 years; 7 sessions; and without ending in each session (it's continued in the next session). Tjonge, jonge even though they keep watching it every week. Is it true? Yes it is. According to a fact, this drama was on the first rating of Indonesian drama for about 2 years.

Ok, I think it's enough for me to talk a lot about those circumstances. How about if we take a brief look at some new dramas

Dara Manisku--my sweet girl

What a Cinderella story, since the girl, named Cleo who comes from a rich family pretends to be a maid at her lover's house to examine his love. Stupid lover (Daniel), he even can't recognize the girl that he loves deeply. Instead, the maid was treated badly by his lover's cousin who lives under the same roof and has a crush on Daniel. Many times Daniel suspects his maid is the girl that he adores but something happens and keeps her secret safe from her master.

Cinta SMU--High School's love

It was one of my favorite series when I was in high school. It's about a love story in a high school. That time, I had never been in love ^^;the story had a nice scenario and the conflicts made me think how difficult it was to have a relationship during high school. But what a disappointment when I came back home last summer, the series is still broadcasted on Tv but now the story go beyond the spirit world. Get what I mean? In this extended session they made the story also about the ghost of a student who was in love with his classmate when he was alive.

Bidadari--Angel

A drama that was dedicated for young audience, it is a story about a little girl whose mother has already passed away and her imaginary friend; an angel. After her mother passed away, her father married a widow with a son. The step mother and the step brother are kind persons when the father is around. But when he's away for work, the girl was suffered due to the bad attitudes of her step family. The girl is very kind-hearted, she never tells her father about what her step mother has been doing to her. Instead of that she always tells her angel and the angel always teach her to be a good one. The basic story is good for child education.

As the time goes by (again when I went back last summer to Indonesia), when now the girl is a high school student, the step mother became even evil than before. She poisons her own husband until he loses his memory and becomes an imbecile. Sometimes, she often tries to endanger her step daughter by spelled her with dark magic. However, the girl keep being a good girl and forgiving all her step mother's deeds.

Well, I just sum all up how I view nowadays Indonesian drama production. More than that, I let you to find out by yourself. Let us pray that our country will be better in the future. Amen.

Me in Stockholm..



can you imagine how cold it was? I was frozen in minutes