Consistency

Yep..being consistent is difficult. The easiest example of inconsistency is this blog. I thought it was very fun to do whatever I like with my blog. This is my own creation and I can write whatever comes over my mind including the language selection.....and also my decision to end this post now!

Learn when to stop or go on

Many say that work hard for living. The Bible says, you who are lazy don't eat. Well I don't deny it, when I started working I learn that earning income is not as easy as asking money from my parents. We do need to do some works in order to live in real world or when we decide to start living independently apart from our parents including their financial help.



The other also say when something allows you to earn more money you should keep doing it. This time this sentence has stopped me for a moment before I agree on it. Some thoughts are popping out in my mind,



whether it is absolutely right statement or not,

will it make me happy to have more money?

Will my saving enough to cover all my costs if I don't do part-time job?

or

If I continue, could it lead me to be a "money's slave? (this one is scary)

Then I look back at myself and ask, "are you strong enough to work seven days a week? I mean five weeks in the office and two days part-time during weekend?" Honestly, my body and my mind can't really handle it. To have extra income from weekend job is tempting
but
to be with my beloved and my friends during weekend are even more alluring.
My bf often comments that usually that exhausted tiring face and voice are always there everytime I finish my part-time work and then he gets upset that I have only a short time to chat with him because I directly go to bed an hour later after coming home. Just for your information the take-away shop where I work is in another city that takes me about one-hour for one-way trip.

What a long thinking that I had. Until two weeks ago I still considered it is ok to work on the weekend because my friends can do that and so can I. Then last Saturday I hurt my own back while tyring to lift a heavy crate of frozen food back to the fridge at my work (it did make "cracky" sound). After the little incident, I could barely stand up well when I woke up on Sunday morning. Actually I still have to work that afternoon in the same place. I went to church but my mind was not on ease, kept thinking whether I should go to work or stay and take a rest. I asked forgiveness from God for not focusing all my heart and mind during the service.
Finally after it finished I made my decision and called my lady-boss to cancel my work today. It was quite a shame as in Holland when you have made an appointment it surely is impolite to cancel it in less than two hours before the appointment time.

However, on the other hand, I think that I had made a right decision that time. I might lose my job but it is better than I fall sick even more and cannot work anymore.

What I learn so far is to know my own condition...and realize that everyone has different limit and capabilities.

At the peak

After almost two weeks of reading manual finally I gave up and almost bored-to-dead. One hour for me it feels like forever. But I told everyone that I have finished reading it (just trying to make good impression he?!). It was last Thursday's afternoon, five minutes before 17.00 when finally I closed the Yellow manual folder and bravely stepped into my (temporary) supervisor's office and (ehm) challenged him to give me job to do or I quit...ups...I mean I take a day off for the following day (Friday).

Honestly, I was having a little hope that he will let me off on Friday because anyway on Monday my real boss from other department is coming from his vacation and he's going to give me my first assignment. Unexpectably, he tried to guess my mind and uttered it to me, "I know that you actually don't want to take a day off, right?"

"umm..yeah right!" I smiled strangely while answering back (I hope he couldn't read my expression).

And he continued, "I have a plan for you, there are some things that you can do tomorrow."

I asked, "for a half day and then I can leave earlier?" (with blinking eyes which show full expectations)

"No, it is something that I hope can be done for one full day," with smiling over his face because the problem solved.

"OUCH!!" (Homer's style on mute mode)..."well ok I'll come to your office tomorrow"

And the next day, I did do some works for him for the whole day. In the end I still left some works unfinished when the time had shown ten to six.
Time did fly very fast, when there is something to do. Well for now I can say I love working than doing nothing :p . Am I trying to be cool? Naaahh..no comment

After all I really learnt my lesson...

Back to the office back my old habit

Trust me I can't stay awake without at least three cups of coffee a day....Moreover until my supervisor is back to the office I have to finish two big binders of reading materials. I don't want to say this in front of my colleagues but reading too long has caused me to feel bored and sleepy for the whole day. Hiks I miss my pillow and bed......

I hope it is just the beginning...they say everyone has to go through the same pattern........but for how long???

We'll see and wait ok?!!

Tadaimaaa.....

I'm back after letting this blog vacant for the whole two months...
I have a new blog...special dedicated for my favorite hobby: watching Japanese drama hohohoho (laughing proudly like Shin-Chan posing Action Kamen).
The address: le4theflea.wordpress.com (I cannot stand the temptation to create a blog at Wordpress) (~o~).
Unfortunately it's still a mess...only some posts are there.

Ok it's almost 5 I have to go home now

Cheers,

Lea

Cerita tempo doeloe...Pergi ke Jerman featuring Anna, Silvia, dan Adi

Bahasa: Indonesianya Lea tempo doeloe tahun 2003 (anak Indo yang tidak bisa berbahasa Indonesia dan baru belajar bahasa Belanda)

Hi,
humm...mau crita apa ya?kejadian kemaren bener2 masih cukup mengejutkan,lucu,cukup adventourlijk jg,menyebalkan,tapi fun jg,sing pasti sangat membekukan kaki ama tangan,membasahi badan juga,terakhir yang pasti melelahkan pyuuuuhhhh. Sebanyak itu terjadi dalam 13 1/2 jam di Keulen. (ati2 aku bakal ngoceh banyak lagi nih yang gak sempet diceritain di telpon).

Location: Schoterstraat Haarlem
ceritanya kemaren masang weker jam 4.30 tapi baru pada bangun jam 5.15. si Adi malah masih sempet2nya mandi. aku, Via, en Anna dah siap ae (ceritanya bukan belum mandi lho ya...malemnya udah). akhirnya cabut ke amster jam 6.11 pakai vol tarif lagi...(asli kaya masih malem banget...ramalannya sunnya baru keluar jam 9)

Location: Amsterdam NS
Anna dikabari Tata en Tg baru berangkat dari Haarlem. Kira2 jam 7 kretanya dateng si ICE (asli keren banget dalem'e) orang2 udah ramai juga di peron 4 pagi itu. Pas kreta dateng Tata Tg pas dateng jg..akhirnya berangkat juga 10 mnt kemudian.

Location: ICE
jalurnya sih cukup panjang dari central trus lewat Duivendrecht mo ke Utrecht-Arnhem-Oberhausen Hbf-Dusseldorf Hbf.Taunya sampai di Arnhem yang udah ketutup salju dimana-mana...tau gak ternyata kita salah gerbong ama tempat duduk. Akhirnya pada mengungsi deh sekampung....ke gerbong lain yang ternyata lebih exclusive...(huaaa rugi kenapa gak dari tadi) masalahnya tadi Anna salah liat tiket yang buat pulangnya ntar. Gak isa lama2 d di sana meskipun kereta udah kena vetraging 20 mnt. Pd waktu sampai di Dusseldorf rata2 semuanya lagi pada bangun tidur.

Location: Dusseldorf Hbf (NS)
gara2 divertraging kita akhirnya ketinggalan kereta yang buat overstappen ke Koln Hbf dan kereta ICE selanjutnya baru berangkat 1 jam kemudian. Akhirnya abis tanya kanan kiri plus pada kademen kabeh...jadilah kita ber 6 penumpang gelap di kreta dengan jurusan yang sama ke Koln. (Kretane agak tua...kursine atos ki waduuuh).

Location: Koln Hbf (NS)
udah jam 10 pas nyampai sana...cuaca baik2 ae hehehe cuma adem'e gak karu2an (menurutku lho). Keluar dari station keliatan d katedral terbesar di Europa (jadi terkagum-kagum deh...gila buesar banget megah gak karu2an walaupun dalem'e bolong sih gak ada lantai 2 dan seterusnya menang tinggi ae). Kumat deh kebiasaan lama anak Indo...apalagi kalo gak mengabadikan moment2 kaya gini sambil nugguin Kerst Marktnya buka jam 11. abis puas ngeliatin katedralnya, aku ikutan pergi ke centrumnya d.Mungkin kota2 di Jerman kalah bagus ama Holland tapi centrumnya kereeennn!!! jalannya dipaving, outdoor (herannya aku malah inget kota Solo ^^; )-->gak nyambung. Ada beberapa toko sing sama plek ama di sini kaya C&A, Esprit,Mango,Expo, Media Markt,dll tapi ada juga sing gak ada kaya Louis Vulton, GAP, en Douglas. Aku sih gak teralu peduli selama isa dipoto (^o^)v.
Sing payah orang Jerman memang lain ama orang sini! sing pasti kurang ramah, tukang main serodok ae, angel banget jalan ama mereka, cuma nek ditanyain gak keberatan koq njelasin dgn bhs Inggris (walaupun cuma sebagian) Selebihnya pakai Dutch jg gpp mudeng koq mereka dan akhirnya menjawab pakai Jerman juga (komunikasi sing aneh)

sekitar jam 11 kita mutusin ngunjungin Altermarkt...(Anna sangar dee punya kabeh infone dari internet). Lah di sini si Via dapet perkara...dee mo beli panekoek...tapi sing jual gak mau jualin karena dee yakin Via belum berusia 19 thn (???!!!!??) aku sampai geli dewe. Lah bayangin masa Via sampai nunjukin IDnya kalo dee udah 19thn, tapi sing jual tetep gak percaya...akhirnya dijualin juga tapi gak boleh milih rasa kecuali coklat (lho???!!!!). Dasar aneh2 ae....duuhh. udah tengah hari....makan di KFC d (huaaaa)-->aku dah cerita sing ini.Bar makan malah gak pergi2 malah ngobrol sampai 1 jam lebih, padahal sing ngantri lumayan juga. Critanya pada bingung mo kemana lagi. Gak isa pulang....lah bookingnya ambil kreta paling pagi (07.00) pulang paling keri (20.18) (dasar anak business memang gak tanggung2 maksimalin waktu untuk harga tiket yang sama) abis makan masih jam 1 an. Di luar udah mulai snowy lagi....dingin brrrrr.... akhirnya pada pergi dewe2 trus ketemuan lagi di kerst markt deket katedral (sing ini lebih besar dari altermarkt), trus poto2 lagi (jadi boseeeennn.....kangen rumah). sekitar jam 4 Tg ngajakin ngafe....sambil menghitung sisa jam di Mc.Cafe (di sini jg gak ada ya Mc.D punya kafe) ide yang bagus jg. Tg Tata Via duduk dewe, trus tiga yang lain duduk dewe en pesen dewe2. Si Anna lagi bingung gimana minum Caffe Latte, trus dia liatin orang sebelah yang lg minum juga, akhirnya ditiruin hehehe. Sepertinya orang sebelah tau, bar gt dia rasan2 ama temennya soal kita bertiga sambil ngguyu2 dewe.

Dasar... masih 3 jam lagi...mo ngapain ya, matahari udah mulai tenggelam lagi. Ternyata Kerst markt baru keliatan bagus nek malem, lampu2ne baru dinyalain. dimulai lagi kerjaan iseng...poto2 dewe termasuk barang-barang dagangannya (kurang kerjaan banget ya tapi mo gmn lagi buat killing time). O iya pas aku ama Anna mo poto patung2 Natal tiba2 ada serombongan oma2 lewat. Abis ngoceh sana-sini akhirnya mereka sadar kita mo poto patung. Sambil bilang, Gomen no nasai, sumimashen berulang kali trus minggir d. Huaa kita dipikir orang Jepang hahahha....tapi akhirnya para oma sadar koq kita gak isa ngomong hehehe. Udara udah makin dingin masih ujan salju, kaki sampai beku semua plus celana pada basah kena ujan. Mau gak mau harus tetep jalan kalo gak mau beku di jalan. Satu2nya jalan ya pergi masuk lagi ke katedral kan lebih anget. Toko2 udah mulai tutup kecuali pasarnya. lagian tinggal 2 jam lagi, jadi lebih baik balik ke ns d. Ternyata NSnya kaya di Utrecht jg ada centrum di dalam NS uih sangar. anget dan gak dingin lagi.

Akhirnya kereta datang dan kita pulang ke Belanda hohoho...

The End

(Just to remember our nice trip together)

Difficulties to be a human

It is easy to bad-mouth about someone else (especially behind their back)
But surely harder to talk about their good side all the times

Just like ourselves
It is not difficult to talk about our good side and strengths (mostly in the interviews)
In the other hand, describing our wicknesses and weaknesses are the most difficult part.

Having a healthy tongue is a grace we can speak, we can sing, and taste food..but the bible says no one can control that little part of our body.

but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. (NIV; James3:8-10)

(by the way...the water problem is solved.)

Water shortage in Holland

I don't know if I write the title correctly. As you know that Holland is one of those countries where you can drink the water directly from the tap. But...since yesterday the local newspaper warned the people not to drink from the tap because the tapwater company, PWN found that the water is containing e-coli bacteria the news. Who said that it is impossible to happen in the developed country like Holland. Well, as you see, it is possible (some say it is only a politic played by the government to increase the water plumb tax and other say it could be part of end-time prophecy.. who knows)

Honestly, I don't know until when this situation will last. Now I have to cook water before drinking it. Otherwise, I have to buy bottles of mineral water from the supermarket.
Wow...this is quite an experience.

I'm quite a gamer

(let's just say this is the only thing I can do to reduce my boring-meter)

Lea is a gamer, she likes playing computer and board games very much. However, even playing game is one of her hobbies, she is still considered as a noobs. Anyway if you like something it doesn't always mean you have to be pro, right?

These are games that she used to play a lot:
Online games: notpron (a puzzle game), rooms games, neopets (find her with small_fle4 as the username), and other flash games.
Simulation games: Sims 1, Sims hot date, Sims 2, Plushie tycoon, zoo tycoon, ski tycoon
Strategy games: Warcraft 2, Battle realms, Zeus and Master of Olympus (she doesn't really recall the game's name), and recently still playing Command and Conquer 2.

Other games will be written later (time to go to class)

Boseeennn

Nahhh...mulai lagi deh. Hari hujan, kelas pagi-pagi namun sayang sekali bapak dosen tidak datang. Kalau begini rasa ingin cepat pulang dan kembali membungkus diri dengan selimut sambil menikmati bunyi rintik hujan dari jendela...(sok puitis huhu). Sayangnya hari ini belum berakhir, ada satu kelas lagi yang harus diikuti dalam 1/2 jam mendatang dan sebuah pekerjaan yang menunggu seusai kuliah. Saya sedang diserang rasa bosan yang amat sangat setelah liburan seminggu yang penuh dengan aktivitas (yang pasti banyak hura-huranya wakakakakaka-teringat tertawanya Sukri).

Makanya jangan teralu senang-senang ataupun teralu bersedih...ketika hidup kembali normal perasaan bosan itu kembali menyerang. Ya sudahlah mari jalani saja dengan lapang dada hehehe...

Mau ke mana?

Tidak terasa sudah mau mendekati bulan Juli lagi. Kabar baiknya cuaca di Belanda menjadi semakin hangat dengan bergesernya musim semi ke musim panas. Kabar yang kurang baiknya, keuangan makin menipis dan planning ke depan masih burem-burem gimana gitu. Satu, ID sudah mau mendekati deadline dan harus menyiapkan segunung dokumen lagi untuk meyakinkan pihak imigrasi agar memberi saya ijin tinggal. Tempat mangang atau kerja masih belum menentu. Sebenarnya ada satu interview telah menanti di akhir bulan ini, namun kemungkinan untuk diterima atau ditolak masih 50:50. Saya sungguh harus belajar memperkuat iman...pertama iman ketrima kerja terus yang kedua iman akan masa depan yang cerah meskipun tidak berarti harus di Belanda.........(begitu lohhh).

Mungkin saya kebanyakan terpengaruh lingkungan sekitar terutama ketika mendengar rekan-rekan saya tidak sedikit yang bisa melanjutkan kerja di Belanda setelah lulus. "Holland is my first priority" pikiran seperti ini yang terus dimainkan di kepala saya. Ga jelek-jelek amat sih karena dengan demikian saya juga ikut termotivasi untuk tidak menyerah dulu mencari tempat magang untuk 6 bulan mendatang. Jeleknya saya tidak bisa melihat peluang yang mungkin lebih besar di tempat lain; apa coba kalau bukan memulai karir sendiri di satu perusahaan, trus menetap, dan mulai memikirkan rencana berkeluarga (kalau Tuhan mengijinkan).

Lepas dari semua pikiran itu sebenarnya saya masih menikmati kehidupan saya sebagai full-time mahasiswa dan pengangguran. Tinggal dekat ma gereja tempat saya pelayanan dan dekat pula dengan si doi dan teman-teman yang masih berdomisili di Belanda (meskipun jarang ketemu hehehehe). Ternyata rasa syukur itu masih ada di tengah berbagai ketidaktentuan dalam hidup saya. Jadi jalani saja deh...dengan tetap berusaha dan berdoa Amin!!

Spring Anime(s) my watchinglist

Post satu ini adalah kelanjutan dari post berikut Autumn Anime 2006

Tidak terasa satu season sudah habis lagi. Namun sayangnya anime-anime yang ditayangkan musim semi ini kurang begitu menarik (menurut penilaian pribadi saya). Langsung saja berikut adalah anime yang masih dalam jadwal tonton saya:
Di mulai dengan anime lama dulu:

• NANA (sebetulnya sudah tamat namun yang nge-subbed baru sampai episode 39) Ternyata saya masih setia banget nungguin versi dubbingnya hhohohoho.
• Kekkaishi: cerita si pembasmi ayakashi (aka setan sekolahan) yang kepingin jadi tukang roti ini makin menarik saja untuk diikuti. Sayangnya karena belum tamat banyak teman saya yang memilih untuk mendonlot ketika serinya selesai (duh).
• Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge: hiyaa kuwaii-nee-san da yo!!! ternyata setelah 20 episode berselang Sunako belum juga menjadi lady dan keempat cowok cakep itu masih saja belum menyerah. Begitu pula saya yang masih penasaran dengan seri aneh ini.

Anime-anime baruuu!!!!!:

• Kamichama Karin: versi kolaborasi sailor moon dan cardcaptor sakura!!!..Biarin mo dibilang kekanak-kanakan tapi emang cute banget si Karin dan Kazunenya.
• Romeo X Juliet: Jangan berpikiran negatif dulu...ceritanya kali ini penuh dengan improvisasi..more than you have ever heard and seen (ceile). Misalnya si Julietnya yatim piatu dan sebelum dia berusia 16 tahun menyamar jadi anak cowok bernama Odin. Trus Romeonya lebih terkesan culun dan suka jalan-jalan muterin kota ma pegasus bersayapnya. Design grafiknya boleh lah dapet 8 :)
• Lucky Star: Loli-loli melulu....ngomong-ngomong melulu. Sebetulnya saya belum menemukan alasan untuk melanjutkan seri ini -__-#
• Ichigo Mashimaro OVA: Akhirnya video animasinya dirilis..sayang cuma sebulan sekali hiks hiks.
• Lovely Complex: Sebetulnya kurang tertarik karena sudah nonton versi layar lebarnya yang dibintangi Koike Teppei, salah satu anggota WAT--grup band Jepang yang didalangin dua cowok remaja. Setelah nonton satu episode ternyata versi animenya sama menariknya. Cerita persahabatan seorang cewek super tinggi dengan cowok yang pendek yang kebetulan sama-sama temen sekelas yang memiliki masalah dengan tinggi mereka. Yang lebih unik lagi baik filem ma animenya keduanya menggunakan dialek Kansai (kansai-ben).
  

Uih ternyata ga banyak ya....Bener-bener lagi payah nih anime-animenya. Terus beberapa anime juga sudah saya buang dari jadwal saya karena sudah selesai ataupun sudah ga minat lagi.

Yang sudah selesai:Ghost Hunt, Sumomo momomo

Yang dibuang karena bosen: Death Note

Ya sudah segini dulu dehhh heheheheeh...

If Jesus went to this person

Being Pathetic

I used to be a very pathetic person when it came to beg someone's love. I was and hopefully I am not like that anymore. When reading my junior's blog, I recall my old self when being in a relationship for the first time. So demanding yet denying myself to be such demanding person. For example when my bf didn't reply my sms or call then I would be so annoying by crying out loud, which I realized it was mostly for myself not because of him, be so depressed and so suffering just to get his full attention. However, when he asked if I had done that because of his fault, I would say "No." Was it the one that is called pride or was it simply an ego?

My junior is being in that moment at this time. The time when we are told not to expect too much (yet we can't stop expecting) because it brings only hurt. The time we think that love is all about losing your mind, doing everything, giving anything, and sacrificing everything just for him without expecting the same amount of return. Again here we are lying to ourselves about the fact that there are expected returns.

I can think that those things mention above are silly and unreasonable now. But at that time I wouldn't be able to think that way.

Speaking of faith, I would say that those are what the evil tries to affect our mind and feeling by turning upside down what God says about hope and love. I think there is a slight difference between expectation and hope. Expectation is what you predict will happen while hope is something that you believe it will certainly happen.

The scripture does not say if we love someone we can lose our mind and sometimes have to sacrifice all things and that's why Christ died on the cross. That's not the point. But it does say if we love someone, it should be meant to protect, to have trust between each other and always to have hopes.

I hope this can help to ease your mind sis.

Adakah skenario dibalik kejadian seperti ini?

Adapun alasan mengapa post ini ditulis dalam bahasa Indonesia karena cukup susah mendeskripsikan uneg-uneg saya ini dalam bahasa Inggris. Terus agak serem juga sebenernya menulis sesuatu tentang sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan "kematian." Postingan sebelumnya juga ngomong soal hal satu ini. Kurang tahu juga koq sedang dapet inspirasi ngomongin hal-hal kaya gini ^^;

Sebetulnya saya kurang yakin juga dapat mengungkapkan hal ini dalam bahasa Indonesia namun apa boleh buat saya tidak tahu bahasa lain. Maka dari itu mohon kemaklumannya kalau tulisan berikut ini susah dimengerti.

Begini loh...akhir-akhir ini saya tuh sering merasa dibalik semua pembunuhan brutal ada satu skenario yang hampir sama. Yang dibunuh biasanya lebih dari satu orang dan cara membunuhnya bisa dibilang sadis lalu si pembunuh mati bunuh diri dengan meninggalkan pesan terakhir. Masih ga percaya? kalau saudara tidak sengaja membaca postingan ini mungkin masih mengingat beberapa insiden di bawah:

• Kejadian seorang anak tertua membunuh kedua orang tuanya dengan pisau dapur di siang bolong waktu adiknya sedang bobok siang. Katanya karena si pelaku tidak diturutin keinginannya untuk memiliki sebuah sepeda motor. Akhirnya si pelaku mengambil nyawanya sendiri dengan menikam dirinya.
• Lalu beberapa bulan yang lalu, seorang istri yang sedang ditinggal suaminya mencari kerja di luar kota tega meracuni keempat anaknya dengan memberinya minuman beracun dan yang lebih seram seluruh kejadian itu direkam dalam sebuah video hp. Lalu si ibu meracun dirinya sendiri dengan meninggalkan pesan minta maaf atas perbuatannya dan berharap dengan berbuat demikian akan mengurangi beban ekonomi sang suami.
• Yang paling baru, kejadian di sebuah universitas Virginia, pembantaian terhadap para mahasiswa di siang bolong oleh seorang murid Korea jurusan sastra bahasa inggris yang ditemukan mengidap tekanan jiwa karena penderitaanya dan keluarganya yang tidak kaya. 32 mahasiswa-mahasiswi ditemukan tewas di tempat dan Sang pelaku juga ditemukan mati di sebuah ruangan tertutup dengan menembak dirinya sendiri. Selang beberapa hari, sebuah stasiun televisi menyiarkan video dan foto yang berisi pesan terakhir si pelaku tentang motif dan alasan melakukan semuanya itu.

Apakah ada sebuah buku petunjuk tentang melalukan pembantaian brutal bahwa setelah melakukan tindak kriminalnya maka si pelaku harus mengambil nyawanya sendiri? Saya pernah mendengar seorang sastrawan Jepang menerbitkan buku tentang cara bunuh diri namun tidak menyebutkan sebelum bunuh diri seseorang harus mengambil beberapa nyawa orang lain.

Atau sang pelaku hanya tidak ingin ditangkap dan dijatuhi hukuman oleh pihak yang berwajib? Lebih baik mati sekarang dan menjadi hero daripada menyandang gelar kriminal yang akhirnya juga dijatuhin hukuman mati?

Pada akhirnya saya kembali berpikir...tidakkah para pelaku itu menyadari apa yang menanti di kehidupan setelah mati? Bukankah yang terjadi setelah kematian itu bersifat abadi dan tidak ada kesempatan kedua? Sedangkan di bumi, orang masih memiliki kesempatan untuk bertobat dan memulai hidup yang baru untuk mendapatkan kehidupan yang lebih baik setelah mati?

Saya bertanya kepada Tuhan, kalau hidup itu adalah suratan takdir apakah akhir hidup seseorang itu juga sudah direncanakan? termasuk mereka yang mengakhiri hidupnya sendiri? atau hal itu adalah sebuah pilihan? Dalam beberapa kasus, tidak sedikit orang-orang yang tidak berhasil mengambil nyawanya sendiri.

I have belief that heaven is so real and so is hell. That's why I come to this conclusion;

Life-span given in the earth is like a time given in an exam. There are some little sections with questions and options. The choices are our rights to decide which answer to choose. If we think we have made mistakes in some parts, we can still revise and correct the wrong ones as long as there is time left. However, when the time is finally up there will be no more chance and only two results will be rewarded either PASS or FAIL.

The only difference between life-span and exam's time is that we never know when our time on earth ends OR how much time is still left...10 more years? a week? or even 1 more minute?...just like that in one glance IT HAPPENS & FINISH.

Really I do not want to scare anybody but I sometimes feel very afraid of how short our life is. Even the oldest person on the earth age cannot compare the age of the earth where we have been living till today.

The doer of Virginia incident was only 23 as old as I am now........how can't I thank you that I am still given a time to live until this day.

The last enemy defeated

The last enemy, name "death", had been defeated......

When?
When Jesus rose again on the third day after His crucifixion (I shout HORRAYY!!!). Apostle Paul wrote in his letter that He is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead and soon this will be followed by great harvest on earth: the risen of, first, people who died in Christ and then followed by those who put their faith in HIM.

Why this is a biggest celebration that has ever taken place on earth's history?

I think death is always frightening for most people because none from afterlife world has ever given testimony how life after dead looks like. If death is not that horrible, why would in every funeral, people cry and mourn..hardly find someone with a cherish face? Even when the scariest leader, Saddam Hussein, was sentenced death a couple months ago.......I am very much sure there are people who felt left and couldn't accept this.

(Imagined if I were a rationalist who is trying to find the answer to this problem)
Healthy is over when sickness comes...and sick is gone when the cure is found...(see the circulation?)
Life ends when death comes....then how can death come to end? What next?
Are dead persons really gone from the world...have they disappeared forever from universe
Will there be a reincarnation as some religions believe there will
Honestly, I really don't like this kind of belief if it is really happened...a never ending life-cycle..born as a human, then do bad things in the world, die, and then reincarnate as a pig...pig goes to butchery process, die as a roasted pig..and then what?? Maybe it's better to check this clip from youtube for a while.



If the reincarnation is a fact, why should the world concern about the increase of world's population? I hate the fact if life is really a circle, there is simply NO ending and NO clear beginning about who I originally was.

Over the reincarnation issue, I would say, the history of the fall of first humans into sins, then centuries afterwards, Jesus who was sent to earth by God Himself died at the cross, burried and rose again on Easter Sunday and conquered the death...has given me a much better image about what comes next after the death....
There is a hope of an eternity live in the heaven, a place that is thousand times better than the earth...



“I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die” (John 11:25-26).

Good Friday

More than a millenium ago, a son of man was cruxified for the blames that were NOT His but actually those were ours that He brought on the cross.

He died so that through His blood we could be forgiven and saved...

That son of man's name is Jesus,
my Lord and my saviour.

He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to those sins and live for righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed (1Pet2:24)

Recommended to watch (for Business & Politics students)

Karei Naru Ichizoku (the story of splendid family)

End (time to sleep)

zzz.........

Definition of "healthy"

This morning I read a news that the legendary Indonesian pop singer, Chrisye, has passed away due to his lung cancer.

Suddenly while thinking about it....a question popped up in my mind. What does health or to be healthy actually mean?
I know it is somewhat irrelevant with the news but I'm still in the mood of discussing the term "healthy."
By the end of 30th March 2007, finally I came with some thoughts.

First thought
Would it be enough to be declared "you are a healthy person" when you have no desease and your body is clean from any bacteria?
How about if nothing wrong with your body but your mind is being occupied by stress and problems? would you be still called a healthy person?

If I were in that situation, I wouldn't call myself healthy...and so would people..they would rather calling me crazy, having a mind-sickness. So I think this is not the right definition of being healthy.

Second thought
Would it be enough to say "I am very healthy" with all fullness in my life like I have a lot of money, food, jewelery, or lots of friends around me..so people will call me whealthy (read: wealthy)?
If the answer of that statement is true, then people who don't have money, food, and have none want to be friend with..would they be called the unhealthy ones? Because they maybe sick with their living conditions and start thinking "mylife is suck!!"

I believe at least someday in someone's life, someone will feel lackness in their life...can be anything, lack of money, feeling hungry or starving, or even feeling lonely and left behind as things always come and go...
When I was thinking about these, I was reminded of an old sentence, "you can buy anything in this world but not your health." (I can look for money, buy food, bribe someone to be my friend, but I cannot persuade my sickness to go away from me) So basically this thought of mine is also not right.

Then here is my third thought coming...
I cannot say everyone but most of people wish to be always healthy and lead a good life. Nevertheless I know there are not few people were born with handicaps or they were born with a certain lethal desease(s), which the cures were nowhere to be found and most of them have to life with it for the rest of their life.
Would there be a time or some times in their life, they will be called "a healthy person"?

I was thinking hard to find an answer or anything arguing the question when suddenly a song was being played in my mind...and it goes like this:

Hati yang gembira adalah obat (A joyful heart is good medicine)
sperti obat hati yang senang (it is like happiness medicine)
tapi semangat yang patah keringkan tulang (but a crushed spirit dries up the bones)
hati yang gembira adalah obat ((after all) a joyful heart is good medicine)

Not long after that, something popped up in my mind and said to me, "to be healthy you need yourself in the first place to declare it before anyone does." If it is possible I would say the word "healthy" means "(to) heal-thy(self)" and "thy are healed."

After all "being healthy" is not about your body or your life situation only..........it needs a body, a positive mind, and the most important thing...a joyful heart, a heart that heal thy (read:you).

(proverbs 17:22)

The reason to live

Recommended to be watch before reading this post: Harry Potter; NHK ni Youkoso!; The Pursuit of the Happiness

Hope is the reason to live and so is dream
People struggle to survive and live up their live for
there is something they wish to achieve
there are some things to run after
When finally the dreams come true, we are glad for it and continue hoping, dreaming for a better future...

However,

When the dreams are broken, what would you do?
We know that the right action to take is "don't give up," get yourself back on the track and make plan B...think positively "it's not over..just not the right time yet"



If...
all peoples chose to give up easily, there wouldn't be a lot of successful persons (I think it's good to watch the pursuit of happiness, not only because my fav actor, Will Smith was there...there was a lesson taught).

The thing is that it is not easy to be optimist person. Not few people, when their dreams and hopes are torn apart, they choose to take a shortcut.....



Running-away from the reality (a coward..maybe)
Becoming a "hikkikomori" (a Japanese term for someone who failed in many things then issolated himself from outside world..and finally let himself live in world of conspiracies--pls watch NHK ni Youkoso!).
or
Giving up the life...by taking own life
(I know it is not always because someone has no hope anymore..in some countries people still do it as ritual or trends (recently like what happened in Korea when two beautiful Korean actresses committed suicide and their fatal actions were followed by their fans)).



What's the reason I'm still living until today if bad things happen...if I fail in many things? Has God abandoned me?

Like it or not.........Unfortunately, there are not always answers behind all things and it seems God remains silent.

I often got so depressed easily too when everything is going wrong.
Have I ever tried to runaway? I would say many times (wished to have ctrl+alt+del installed and then to restart everything before the bad thing taken place)
Have I ever felt to dissapear, away from people? can't count anymore (was hoping to own Harry Potter's invisible cloak)
Have I ever thought of killing myself? once or twice when I was a kid

But one thing I've learnt about the reason why I still live until today
Just because of the promises, whic one of those God has promised nothing of His plans is meant to harm me in the end...if I am obidient...if I put Him as the center of my life.
I think...that's how my faith grow, to keep me hoping for a better tomorrow, and to encourage me facing my problematic life until the end. When finally the problems solved I feel like I have won a competition,
and it is giving me strengths to move on and to face the harder ones.

Through HIM we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we boast in our hope of sharing God's glory. Not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance,
endurance produces character, and character produces hope. (Rome 5:2-4)